“In fiction: we find the predictable boring. In real life: we find the unpredictable terrifying.”
My phobia of crowds began for me in grammar school. Being somewhat of a sickly kid I started school a bit later than my fellow students. That one year age difference made an impression on my image of myself. I loathed crowds in general and of course people in particular.
Speaking before the class ,answering questions posed by my concerned teachers or just mingling with fellow students during recess was difficult. I was not living life but becoming merely a spectator of reality. This frustrated me to no end.
It took a lot of work, maturity and of course personal determination to overcome this menacing spectre. A Dale Carnegie public speaking course helped me in my professional career. Before this I was the reporter who feared crowds, people and the limelight. Ironic isn’t it?
I eventually realized that I was not the center of the universe but did have an active part to play in it. I also appreciated more fully the fact there were people in the real world who needed my reporting skills and involvement to help them unravel their own situations that made their lives miserable and in need of resolution.
Journalism helped me overcome my fear of people.